I wanted so badly to be her, to be this beautiful girl. I wanted to be the one singing with joyful abandon, "how lovely to be a woman" and to move like she does. The lyrics cut me deeply, I wanted so badly to be this girl who wanted to be a woman. Even today this is my goto musical, the one where for a moment I'm this beautiful girl.
It's easy to become jaded and angry, to think of the life I have as one I was cheated out of by a chromosomal mistake. I don't deny I have railed against God for being a jerk, for being fallible. I have also wished on falling stars, every eyelash and a penny in every well. I have prayed, wished, hoped and nothing changed. It was all I had (that I was aware of), the wish, to dream and hope.
I won't stop wishing I am that girl, the one who dreams of becoming a woman.